I'm busy. The busiest I've been since moving to Salt Lake. I thought it would send me into a frenzy of goal setting and networking, but I find myself counting the days until the next adventure or family visit. My brain is tired from being on a treadmill of thoughts- how do I get better? What are my career goals? How do those mesh with supporting Dr. H? Are my ovaries shriveling up yet?
There's a large part of me extremely annoyed at my go-getter self. Sometimes it's just a whisper, other times a primal scream- but the message is all the same. Simplify your life. Be content. I'm reaching for a brass ring, but have no idea what that represents to me. In sports, the goal is to win & get faster. In school, the obvious goal is to get good grades and graduate. But the goal in life in general? Well, F if I know. Is it, I dare say- to actually enjoy it?? If I died tomorrow, I would be sad Dr.H & I didn't get to travel/adventure more, I would regret not spending more time with family, and I would wonder what kind of parent I could have been. I certainly wouldn't regret my resume lacking qualification xyz, or not owning a house with a white picket fence by the age of 30. So I'm on a "simplify my life kick."
I asked Dr. Hottie if he would be a dirtbagger with me, but he didn't seem very excited about the idea. Me recreating the pray part of "Eat, Pray, Love" was also out of the question. So I'm left with approaching these thoughts on a day-to-day basis- whenever there's a fork in the road, I'm attempting the simpler way. The simpler way is different for each person, but- I think- should revolve around whatever core values they hold dear. Why complicate it further? As Henry David Thoreau once wrote, "My greatest skill in life has been to want but little."
There's a large part of me extremely annoyed at my go-getter self. Sometimes it's just a whisper, other times a primal scream- but the message is all the same. Simplify your life. Be content. I'm reaching for a brass ring, but have no idea what that represents to me. In sports, the goal is to win & get faster. In school, the obvious goal is to get good grades and graduate. But the goal in life in general? Well, F if I know. Is it, I dare say- to actually enjoy it?? If I died tomorrow, I would be sad Dr.H & I didn't get to travel/adventure more, I would regret not spending more time with family, and I would wonder what kind of parent I could have been. I certainly wouldn't regret my resume lacking qualification xyz, or not owning a house with a white picket fence by the age of 30. So I'm on a "simplify my life kick."
I asked Dr. Hottie if he would be a dirtbagger with me, but he didn't seem very excited about the idea. Me recreating the pray part of "Eat, Pray, Love" was also out of the question. So I'm left with approaching these thoughts on a day-to-day basis- whenever there's a fork in the road, I'm attempting the simpler way. The simpler way is different for each person, but- I think- should revolve around whatever core values they hold dear. Why complicate it further? As Henry David Thoreau once wrote, "My greatest skill in life has been to want but little."